Goodbye twitter ;)

today I delete my accout on twitter :) maybe I don't create new accout, okay babay tweetland :D gonna miss you!

yesterday

okey langsung aja gw mau cerita soal kemarin :) yah hari dimana air mata gw jatuh ngak kira kira banyak banget deh tuh yah. udah gitu gw marah banget kemaren sama nyokap, bokap, bahkan diri gw sendiri.

jadi kemaren rencana gw mau ke gading sama roy tapi malemnya gw ngak bilang sama nyokap gw, baru pas mau pergi bilangnya, dan ngak di kasih.

yah mau marah marah aja gw lg liburan ngak kemana mana gitu ya bosaaaaaaaaan ~

ya something I do, and I cry! *acakadul banget ing gw *

yah pokoknya ada sesuatu privasi lah gitu yah susah buat gw ceritain di sini. dan akhirnya roy minta ijin sama nyokap gw dan nyokap gw balesnya *piip* yah ngak bisa di publish pokoknya membuat semuanya makin ancur deh ya. dia marah, kesel, ya emang gw ngecewain dia (lagi) :(( bodoh memang!

sampe akhirnya uh ya dia mau meninggalkan gw dengan alasan semua itu demi gw, yah gw ngak mau terus ngerengek ngak mau, memohon mohon dll :((

yah sakit hati lagi! haha makanan gw kayaknya sakit hati deh ya ckck.

intinya karena ini kejadian gw jadi nyalahin diri sendiri teru terusan, udah gitu gw ngak ngerasa ada orang yang ngerti gw. yah cuma God yg bisa ngerti gw untuk semuanya! cuma DIA! 

gw merasa bersyukur banget kalo inget ada Tuhan :))

coba gw tanya ke dunia ya, "Siapa yang mengerti hatri gue dan gue?" pasti dunia menjawab, "Ngerti lu? ngak dong" atau apalah yang lain haha :)

ya bahkan orang yang bilang sayang gw ternyata ngak :D

yah mungkin ini kesalahan gw tapi gw selalu beerusaha untuk menjadi yang terbaik, menjadi yg di inginkan. menjadi yang utama, bisa jadi inspirasi buat orang lain.

tapi sekarang yang gw pengen cuma satu kok,

gw mau melewati setiap langkah dalam hidup gw bersama lelaki pilihan gw! ;)

just it, no more :) dan gw selalu berdoa dan memohon. semoga semuanya akan cepat menjadi lebih baik ya :)

I beg

Mom, please allow me to do everything I like, include to be with him. I know it's hard to you but I'm begging you.

us :)

The time has come for us to talk
about the feeling that is more and more torturing
about the strong longing
about unspeakable love

We have been silent for too long
drowned within unstoppable restlessness
filling our dreams at night

Oh my love, my darling, please just let go
your affection, your longing, all of your love
and now it is just you and me
a moment in eternity

if only we could stop the time
and all the dreams could become reality
melting all the boundaries
between you and me, us

mistakes again again and again

I LOVE YOU, ROY! ♥ 

yeah I hurted you, but I really love you, with all my heart.
I know I'm too stupid, but I have one heart and that's heart now is yours forever.
I don't know what should I do now, I'M TOO STUPID!
always make you dissapointed, yeah I don't know, cry T_______________T

SO SORRRRRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

kangen pacar saat malam hari part 6 ♥

you and I will always celebrating love and life together ;)
LOVE YOU FULL ROY SEPTIAN SINAGA ♥
Goodnight sweetheart, see you in dreamland :D hug hug hug kiss kiss kiss :*

kangen pacar saat malam hari part 5 ♥

Everyday and every night, this feeling I'd fight
Try as I might but I wont win, I surrender, I'd die
You are winning here alright
Every morning when the sun would shine on me
Id flash a smile but deep inside
I feel so sad and lonely
I need you here and now
I miss you
Its crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too
Miss you
All I want is for this love to last forever
You walked away, never came back, oh I tried to recover
I can't bear it boy alright
When I hear a song that we had used to share
Ill try as I might to hide the tears, and when the pain is over
Ill wish that you are near
I miss you
Its crazy to pretend that I don't think of you
The more this feeling just seems to grow and grow
I miss you
Oh how much longer can I hold on to
Maybe you can come and tell me that you miss me too








I miss you much Roy Septian Sinaga <3

kangen pacar saat malam hari part 4 ♥

Sometimes, sometimes the world gets hard
I'm gonna take it from there boy
Don't you worry

I wanna be your lake or your bay
And any problems that you have
I wanna wash 'em away
I wanna be your sky
So blue and high
And everytime you think of me
I wanna blow your mind

I wanna be your air
So sweet and fair
So when you feel that you can't breathe
I'll be there

I wanna be your answer, all the time
When you see how I put your life before mine
With no question

I wanna hold your hands
Review all your plans
I wanna make sure everyone of your dreams will stand
I wanna be your broadway show on review
So I can act out how God was when he made you
I wanna be your lighthouse when you get lost
I'll light a bright and shining path to help you across
I wanna be your mother, wait
See what I see
And when you see that can't nobody hold you like me
Cause I love you

And when there's no one there to hold
And you realize the world is cold
Don't worry, boy
I'm gonna take it from here
That's what I'm gonna do
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, boy
I'm gonna take it from here

Give me one reason why we should not be leaving
This world is so deceiving, the time is now
Let's fly away speeding
Through the Garden of Eden
Where all the sweet breathing of love surrounds

Give me one reason
Why we should not be leaving
This world is so deceiving
The time is now
Lets fly away speeding
Through the Garden of Eden
Where all the sweet and breathing
Of love surrounds

Love ain't always the way they write in books
See there's the good guys
And also heartbreak crooks
Your hearts the real book
Just take a look inside
'Cause it's a colorful illustrated guide

So there you go
Don't worry
I'll be the one
To help you weather the storm
I'll be there
No matter what time
No matter what place
You can always count on me
I'll take it from here 


When all the love feels gone
And you can't carry on
Don't worry, boy
I'm gonna take it from here
Just as sure as the sun will shine
Every morning, everytime
Don't worry, boy
I'm gonna take it from here

kangen pacar saat malam hari part 3 ♥

I wanna call the stars
Down from the sky
I wanna live a day
That never dies
I wanna change the world
Only for you 
All the impossible
I wanna do

I wanna hold you close
Under the rain
I wanna kiss your smile
And feel the pain
I know what's beautiful
Looking at you
In a world of lies
You are the truth 

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero 
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

I wanna make you see
Just what I was
Show you the loneliness
And what it does
You walked into my life
To stop my tears 
Everything's easy now
I have you here

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark 
When you tell me that you love me

In a world without you
I would always hunger
All I need is your love to make me stronger 

And baby
Everytime you touch me
I become a hero
I'll make you safe
No matter where you are
And bring you
Everything you ask for
Nothing is above me
I'm shining like a candle in the dark
When you tell me that you love me

You love me
When you tell me that you love me ♥

kangen pacar saat malam hari part 2 ♥

I don't wanna hurt you!
I don't wanna lose you, yes I wanna hold you.
I don't wanna make you sad and make you cry ;)


I do love you with all my heart Roy Septian Sinaga. hug&kisses ♥

kangen pacar saat malam hari ♥

I dont wanna lose you :)
then i just wanna say i love you much, i know we're in love so i want this love will be ever..
i never need anything,just need your LOVE and a lot of caring :*
so i want you keep this love and i'll too ;)

I ♥ YOU ROY SEPTIAN SINAGA :)

I love this words

lg suka sama satu kata dan kata itu terlontar pada tanggal 24 mei 2010 pukul 18.29 oleh si cungkring tercinta :b

yeah he said "aku mau serius :)" and that's words make me really happy ♥

thankyou honey :) I LOVE YOU VERY DAMN MUCH! HUG&KISSES ♥

something

I want to tell you about something but, I can't.

its just my story and I'll never forget about it ;)

smpk 1 penabur farawel trip to jogja bali :D

sekarang mau nge post soal trip ke jogja bali 25 - 30 april kemaren :) yah walaupun gw telat nge postnya tapi ngak papa lah ya. jadi bulan kemaren tangal 25 jem 7 anak smpk 1 baerangkat ke jogja naek bus. bayangkan bus! oke perjalanan sekitar 12 jam lah ya plus ada makan siang, istirahat dll. gw ada di bus 2 tuh dan you know gw duduk sama guru di depan! bayangin aja gimana gondoknya gw rasanya pengen teriak -______-  udah makanan sepanjang ke jogja kaga ada yg enak itu itu doang. ckck. ngak enak banget sumpah ckck. yasudahlah. udah gitu ya bus gw anaknya rasa sedikit sarap gitu. seneng dah :D rameeeeeeeee yuhuuuuuuuu! pas perjalanan kita nonton film gitu. ada avatar, terus ada film horor juga, pokoknya banyak deh gw juga rada lupa sih :) haha. jem 8an gitu kita nyampe jogja. akhirnyaaa udah pegel pegel gw. ckck. kita nginep di kayak apartemen gitu. sumpah deh tuh ya nga enak banget tempatnya serem gamau lg gw tidur disana ckck. tp gw, icha, sien pindah kamar gitu jadi enak deh. abis mandi makan dll kita kita pada keluar gitu nyari makan dan akhirnya kita ke circle k deh. banyak banget yg kesana gw juga lupa siapa aja. dan ada si itu. omaigat ckck. tetep aja sih gw ngak di ajak ngomong haha. akhirnya gw cerita ceritanya sama stanley deh tuh. beli burger malem malem terus pas kita lg beli ada kaya org ribut gitu. ckck. sereeeem ~ yaudah deh akhirnya kita balik ke hotel lalu tidurrrrr :)

pagi pagi bangun beres beres, nge pack koper, mandi, makan, masuk bus. haha. yah hari ini kita mau pada ke borobudur, malioboro, lalu berangkat ke bali dengan bus, ayay! :D hahaha. abis sarapan kita langsung berangkat gitu deh ke borobudur. sampe disana rombongan kita langsung masuk deh. ada kaya tourguide gitu tp kita ngak dengerin juga sih malah foto foto haha. naek sampe atas kaya orang gila. yah ngak ada yg special sih udah sampe atas turun lg terus balik ke bus -______- abis itu langsung cao deh ke tempat makan. pas nyampe mantap deh retorantnya! makanannya enak! sepanjang perjalanan baru itu makanan yg enak. haha. abis makan balik ek bus terus cao ke malioboro deh. pas udah nyampe anak anak di suru jalan sendiri. gw jalan sama elsa, sarah, lerie. liat liat terus kita beli gelang, beli baju "I LOVE DJOGJA" samaan sama sarah dia abu abu gw putih. terus gw beli satu lg buat roy. abis itu disana gw liat tas mirip sama tas battinya roy ckck tp gw akhirnya beli yg buat cewe sih haha. udah gitu gw duluan balik ke bus. ngak taunya banyak yg ke mall gitu deh. wah gw gatau sih kalo ngak kesana kali. jem 5 kita berangkat ke restorant buat makan sama mandi. ya bersih bersih gitu lah. and you know? mati lampu! damn! gila gw sama sarah mandi sampe ribet banget deh ah -- ckck. ya abis selesai semuanya kita jalan deh ke bali :) yuhuuuuu. tapi pas perjalanan pada tepar semua termasuk gw. wkwk. jem 12an gitu berenti di restorant dan banyak yg beli pop mie termasuk gw :D ahaha lapar di malam hari. bus langsung bau pop mie deh :) haha. paginya, sampailah kita di restoran lg untuk makan pagi dan mandi. di daerah mana gitu lupa juga deh gw. enak banget kamar mandinya gw sampe keramas lg haha (ga penting) abis beres semua langsung cao lg deh ke pelabuhan buat nyebrang ke bali. selama perjalanan gw telponan sama roy :) yeay disana gw senyum senyum terus dah. dia nyanyi dua lagu dan gw rekam wohooo! yaudah udah gitu nyampe terus nyebrang sekitar sejam deh kalo ngak salah, nyamper terus jalan deh. pas jalan bus gw kena insiden nyerempet motor smpe di bawa ke polisi haha. udah gitu rencana mau ke tanah lot. tp kita nyampe sana udah sore udah mau gelap plus bus 3 mogok -- kita kesana sih tp udah ngak keliatan apa apa ckck kasian ya -____- jadinya gw jalan jalan sama satah belanja. kita beli baju I LOVE BALI sma celana gitu deh. abis itu ke hotel. akhirnyaaaaaa! mau tidur gw -___- ckck. kita dapet kamar no 211. eh bener ga ya? haha bodo deh yg penting not bad lah :) terus kita mesn mcd tuh di ajakin ezra sih wkwk. makan makan dan tidur :)

(mulai cape nulis intinya aja)

hari ini kita ke water sport yeaaaay! naek banana boat gratis loh yuhuu. terus gw naek paraseling haha udah abis dari sana kita ke pulau penyu. udah abis itu kita otw lg deh GWK haha. mantapp disana gw suka :)) abis dari gwk ke uluatu kalo ngak salah sih namanya terus ke dreamland deh :)) asik asik sunset tapi tanpa sang kekasih :( sedih dah ckck. abis itu kita pulaaaaang ke hotel :))

hari ini pagi pagi kita ke krisna buat belanja yeaaay :) wkwk abis dari sana kita ke pantai apa gw lupa buat maen kano haha seruu seruu sumpah udah anak cowo nya rese pake ngejatohin segala tapi happy banget gw ah :) mau lg dongs wkwk udah gitu abis dari sana rencanaya mau ke sukowati tp batal. ohya sblmnya makan di resto bali :) seruu banget makanannya pedes semua -- gara gara ngak jadi ke sukowati kita ke ubud gitu. gila disana mahal mahal tp disana gw dapet tas sama kalung :) haha. abis itu ke monkey forest. untuk ke dua kalinya. ckck. kemaren gw di kawal stanley dan skrg ngaka da yg ngawal -- wkaka. kita abis dari sana ke laka leke buat faraweel :) mantap gw suka banget penyambutannya! udah gitu ada tari tarian dll. terus terus kita di ajarin banyak hal. gw sih belajar ngelukis telur dan hancur -- wkaka. ngak bakat. abis itu ada acara tradisional bali gitu. ceritanya ada sekumpulan gitu minum kaya arak gitu terus nyanyi smbl di iringan alat musik lama lama mereka bisa bangun terus nari terus ngajak anak anaknya nari dan gw kena -- gw gatau mau nari apa bingung. tapi fun abissss! udah abis itu kita di ajarin nari kecak :) haha gokil dah. terus makan malam. sweet banget deh makan malamnya coba sama pacar ya haha. makan bebek seekor plus sambelnya yang banyak! gila deh gw ngak abis -- ckck. abis itu langsung siap siap nari kecak. sumpah dh fun bangeeeeeeet! rame remae nari kecak WOW! sama penari profesional haha mau lagi >< ckck. udah selesai itu farawell party deh :) berasa banget kebersamaannya. abis itu doa bareng dan abis doa pas abis amin langsung ada dance gitu. nakutin lg gila. si ezra sama sate sampe jatoh. ckck. udah gitu makan es terus balik deh ke bus(: hari yg melelahkan buat gue tapi (y)

hari ini hari terakhir oh tidaaaaaaaaak! kita pagi pagi ke kuta bali (y) disana gw tattoo terus makan deh abis itu. gw tatto royel (y) kereennn! wkwk abis itu kita ke joger deh buat belanja :) najis ngantrinya kurang lama loh ckck abis itu ke bandara deh. yah pulaaaang :( sedihhhh. ohya gw lupa selama di bali ada tourguide dari ali gitu yg baik banget. gw suka. kapan kapan kita ketemu lg ya bli :b haha di bandara nunggu ngak lama terus berangkat deh :) kelas gw naek lion air kelas yg laen naik sriwijaya di delay 3 jam lg kasian. ckck. yaudah deh 

babay bali, welcome jakarta :)) we'll miss you bali :D

BALI BALI BALI ♥

blogakeurus -____-

hellooo blog gw yang nasibnya udah ngak tau gimana -____-

gila ngak ke urus banget ya ni blog gw. oke berhubung libur gw cerita deh apa aja yang terjadi.

selamat membaca cerita saya <3

suara hati

hey my beloved, have you seen that your girlfriend is always crying in the middle of the night, in the silence because of your act? 

have you seen that her heart feel so hurt, always scream your name, want you coming back, always crying in any condition? 

why you can fall in two hearts when he was still faithful waiting for?